Sunday, September 30, 2007

We had church tonight!

Hello to everyone and Praise the Lord!

Tonight we watched the sixth session of Daniel. Wow! We were laughing, crying, amening, praising, etc. The Lord showed up in a mighty way! Can someone say mighty?! There were 14 ladies present! We are about to out grow our room! Can I hear an amen?! The Lord is up to something big in the lives of this class. All I can do is hang on and enjoy the ride. All of the ladies in my group are just so precious! When we finished tonight all I could say was "Did we have church or what?" I am so excited about this week's homework. I can hardly wait to get started. After a pretty crummy week-end I needed this tonight. Thank you Lord! He knows what we need before we even ask and provides so graciously. I could just sing of His love forever as the song goes. But, I do have to try and get some sleep before tomorrow so I will be awake to listen to speeches bright and early at 8:00 a.m.

Love you so much and so does He!
Kristi B.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Relating to the king

Hello my dear ones!

As you all know, I am currently facilitating Beth Moore's study of Daniel. We just finished week four and we will watch session five tomorrow. I feel a kinship with the king in Daniel chapter four. I became very rebellious during my college years. I won't get into all the details but you name it I probably tried it in those days. Well after I was married in 1987, I began to have panic attacks. I would wake up in the middle of the night screaming and could not breathe. My husband would have to drive me around outside with the windows of our car down until I could catch my breath. I began having nightmares and feeling suicidal. During this time I was hospitalized on three separate occasions. I know first hand about mental illness. I am not sure how much of my illness was inherited since I have several family members that suffer, but I do know what it is like to "not be in your right mind." (just like the rebellious king) I found myself relying on secular counseling. Most of my counselors thought my main problem was the fact I was married to a Christian man. Poor me! Even worse he was planning on going into the ministry! I was doomed! (according to my psychiatrist) I spent several years fighting against everything I knew in my heart was right.

But the Lord did not destroy my tree. He left me as a stump that would once again grow. (see chapter four of Daniel to understand the reference) Eventually I was introduced to a Godly counselor. We spent a lot of time examining my abuse from a Christian perspective. We created something called the "Jesus Box" where I used a filing system to deal with my past hurts by looking at them as Jesus would. It was life changing! I am now a prosperous mission's pastor's wife that loves reading The Word and ministering to whoever she can wherever she can! Yes, I have been in the pit, and occasionally even now I teeter on the edge, but The Lord always yanks me back as any good parent would if their precious child was about to fall in. I love you Lord and I lift my voice to worship you! Keep at it my dear ones! He loves you so much and so do I!

Love ya
Kristi B.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

God gives us the desires of our hearts

Hi everyone

Well this past week-end at Deeper Still the Lord answered a prayer that I honestly thought would not be answered because it was just a desire of my heart. You all know I love Beth Moore and her studies, well I got to meet her an hug her neck before the conference on Friday. I was there early, as usual, and Beth and Pricilla showed up to surprise us. I do have pictures!

Now I do not worship Beth Moore, but our Lord does speak profoundly through her. She stands on the Word and she is a very gifted Bible teacher. As many of you know my testimony is very similiar to Beth's. I feel connected to her, as I know many of you do. I am still trying to figure out why God answered my prayer. There is something up and I am going to search the word and find out.

I was also blown away by Kaye Arthur. She is amazing. Right now I am facilitating Beth Moore's study on Daniel, but I think next we will do a Kaye Arthur study of Daniel. I want to go Deeper!

Love ya
Kristi B.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

Doing What I Do

Here is a picture of me with Toya's little girl. Toya was one of the first at-risk youth we ever worked with in Mission Raleigh and now Toya is an important part of Mission Raleigh.

Some of you may not know about Mission Raleigh. My husband and I founded a ministry 10 years ago that reaches at risk children, youth, and adults for Christ. We work in low income apartments across the city of Raleigh. We are known as a multihousing ministry. My husband is the missions pastor at our church. He does plan and take trips abroad, but our main focus is Mission Raleigh. We do provide essentials like food, clothing, furniture, etc. We believe if you are hungry, how can you focus on the Word of God. We do kids clubs, adult bible studies, tutoring, GED classes, youth nights, etc. We do a school supply drive every year before school starts. We provide Thanksgiving meals and we do Christmas stores that are totally free. Right now we reach about 500 people a week. But we are not
just a social ministry. Everything we do is about sharing the Gospel and dicipling those that become Christians. My husband and I were not able to have children of our own, but he has blessed us with literally hundreds. Little Amira in the picture is very special. You can see why. What a cutie!

Love ya
Kristi B.